No, but I do thank you all for the advice on hearing voices.
What I mean by the universe trying to tell me something is...well slightly more subtle, yet lately it does feel like a slap upside the head. It just seems I'm being given all these examples of peoples' lives all around me that are having these life altering experiences that I am starting to think this is showing me something, gently tapping me on the shoulder saying "Hey wake up", then shoving me saying "Hey, pay attention here", and now slapping me in the side of the head repeatedly shouting into my face "Hey studid, you snooze you lose". What the true lesson here is still a little unclear but it has got me thinking. It started with the separation of my sister from her husband after 19 (YES NINE-freakin'-TEEN) years of marriage. I am not even old enough to have a sister who has been married for 19 years but since she got married at 17, the math does seem to work out somehow. Wow, that sort of makes you go "Huh?". How did that happen? What got you to that point?
Then there is my friend who's dad died at the age of 60(ish). The man was one of those people who literally warms up a room with his presence; someone you will make you feel like he's known you for years the first time he meets you. I only visited with him a handful of times but his death really struck something inside me. It seems like such a great loss, such a good soul. Would there be that same feeling if I left this world? Am doing what I can to connect with people and share my spirit with people? Definitely not to the fullest.
This week a dear friend of mine went in for caridac artery bypass surgery. He is in his early fifties, previously healthy until started having shortness of breath with exertion a few months ago. After some discussions I suggested his problem my be cardiac and that he should ask his doctor about having a stress test. Upon further investigations, he was sent for an angiogram to assess the degree of coronary vessel blockage he had and was promptly admitted to ICU to await surgery. Thank god nothing happened before that. How lucky he is, how lucky we are that he is safely recovering from surgery today.
On "What Not to Wear" on Friday (yes I am a serious WNTW addict, and although spiritual inspiration is not the usual motivation for watching it...) they did a wardrobe makeover for a 29 year old that has been widowed for the past 6 years. Widowed at 23! How can that BE? And there are a bunch of other little things that I've seen, noticed, experienced over the past few weeks that have me going "Hmmm, I think I need to pay attention." I think I need to focus on what is important. Love my love ones. I mean take the time to really love them. I'm sure there's more to it so I am just trying to keep things in perspective, pay attention. Not exactly sure where that is leading, what else exactly I should be paying attention to but staying tuned in to...whatever that is. Okay, that's my deep thought for the week, probably month. Heck who knows, it's likely the overactive hormones talking. No, not really but it's always a good excuse.
