A Big Step

Well, I've been a little lazy with posting lately between hosting a baby shower, refinishing my deck, having the bitches spayed (poor thing), planning two birthday parties for Mayson's first this weekend AND heading back to work (part-time, I'm very lucky). So this is sort of sad excuse for a post and likely not my best work but I promise to get something more meaningful up soon. As for going back to work after maternity leave I have just a few words to say. No I am not miserable, no I wasn't dreading it, and yes I am fine. True, I did have the expected anxiety attacks and fits of tears about three weeks before the big day but I sat my self down and said this to myself:
You are chosing to go back to work. If you really have a big problem with it, if you REALLY don't want to go back don't. Here's the thing, you are CHOOSING to go back. Yes you can say you have to because of money but really, there is no have to. You choose to WANT the money so that you can keep living in your house, and paying for your SUV, and driving your SUV despite gas prices of 112.5 cents per liter (went down to 106 now, yipee) and taking holidays. So don't be miserable. Make your choice to work or not work. If you are miserable only you can help yourself out of that. And that goes for everything by the way, don't mope about where you are at. Don't be uptight about getting the laundry done everyday, love that you are at home with your baby and stop and play with her on the living room floor. Because you are where you are, so why not love it.

And so I said "Self, good point. Thank you for being so smart and keeping me grounded and focused on what I really should be." And I went to work and I had a nice day and I came home and hugged my smiling baby and we were both very happy. Okay, so that's the highlights, yes I did miss her and yes I would have cried in the driveway of my sis-in-law's place after I dropped her off had it not been for the fact that I was carpooling with my friend, and yes I did crave to sit down on my office floor and sing "This Old Man" while patting my knees a couple of times through the day, but all in all it was okay. I now I think it gives me a great excuse to buy new clothes, this whole working thing, so it really isn't all bad.
Now I must go to bed, which I am excited about because I got a new coffee maker and when I get up I get to have coffee from my new Cuisinart Brew Station, YEAH!

Chiantra's total since last post:
-garbage diving one night found a few treats
-one brand name over-priced Tupperware lunch microwavable container from the counter by the sink (got a little left over shepherd's pie)